TO A MAN WHOM I LOVE WITH ALL MY HEART

TO A MAN WHOM I LOVE WITH ALL MY HEART
 
Over the past few days
I’ve took the time to contemplate
To look my feelings in the face
And ask myself…
In the long run, that one final race
Where do I see myself better to relate
My mind, body, soul and heart
They have never felt this so far apart
Torn between two
I [...]

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MOVE ON

MOVE ON
 
I want to move on
Turn night into dawn
I want to move on
Create a new chapter; a new song
For the days have become night
And the nights become a new fight
The endeavors that have been endured
Seem not to have been cured
And long, long is it overdue
For a fresh, to start anew
I want to move on
Turn night [...]

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SLACKERS

OK, time to vent a bit…I am in school for accounting, and one in of my classes (not to be named) I have had presentations to do with a group. Now each presentations that we have had we have done well…we have gotten A’s on all of them. Now the thing that is bothering me [...]

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BIRTHDAY SURPRISES

hello all,
I just posted an entry about  birthdays, and I needed to write another one about birthday surprises. Today is my birthday, and we really did not have the money for my husband to really get me anything for my birthday, However, he went to get me breakfast and came back with a birthday surprise [...]

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Birthday wishes

good morning all. And to all of you out there who have a birthday today, I wish you a happy one. Today is my birthday. In one way I feel old and in another way I feel like a kid…I guess for some or most of us we will always have that kid thing hanging [...]

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TURKY DAY MIS-HAPS

OK, so to day was Thanksgiving. Most of us cook (as I usually do) and most of us go to families houses for the long awaited yummy dinner…I decided to go to my families this year…was this a good thing? or was it a bad thing? I guess I already knew the answer to that [...]

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WHAT DO YOU SEE?

WHAT DO YOU SEE
 
 
Null and void I walk around
An empty shield
Hesitant to yield
I try so hard to listen for the sound
Yet all I hear is the cracking of the ground
It’s hard to show emotion
It’s hard to show devotion
I know not how to show it anymore
For through the years, my heart has grown sore
It’s so hard [...]

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BOTTLED UP PAIN

BOTTLED UP PAIN
 
I try to hide it
I try not to have a fit
But when I think about the pain
So many emotions rush in
Reminders of the sin
And even the worst of shame
I have, in the past
Said that we would not last
I have, in the past
Away from you, of myself, cast
I have told you of this pain [...]

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A CONSTANT STRUGGLE

Fighting these inner demons is a constant struggle
For the portions of love I have for you, they are insistent to smuggle
In a moments notice I spit vindictive words and hateful phrases
And somehow inside me, hate arises
Knowing what I know
It’s hard NOT to show what I show
And with this immediate rejection
I find myself in constant reflection
Tucked [...]

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OBSESSION

hello all,
Jana here again. i wanted to write today and was not sure of what i was going to write about until now. you know i have always remained faithful to my husband, even through our hard times. We went through a time where we were dealing with a lot of difficult things in our [...]

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